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Mar 29Liked by Peter Smetanick

these are really nice to read through and then to hear the audio.thank you for writing this.It seems like a challenging task to write this.the recording is great it bring life and emotion to the written words.

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Mar 28Liked by Peter Smetanick

Really enjoyed listening to this, Peter. You’re the perfect person to read it, and I love the way that these first few chapters capture the disorientation/intensity of childhood and adolescence. The memories are lucid, candid, and, at times, unnerving. And there’s already a sense of storm clouds looming - of challenges ahead. It was also really interesting how the narrator’s phases of excitement/intensity were so often followed by waves of regret/guilt. Was that intentional? Is that, almost bipolar, swing between phases of reckless freedom and waves of paralysing guilt an important theme in this book? Thanks again for sharing this, Peter. I probably won’t be able to listen to it for a few days, but I’m already looking forward to the next instalment.

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Hey James, thanks for giving me a listen and for your in-depth comment! I really appreciate it and I'm glad to know that you are enjoying so far.

This is a very challenging project for me, mainly because I am writing about real memories. Finding that place where I can sit with my past and then write about it is the most challenging. I'm calling this a "fictional memoir" because the narrator isn't really me, yet the memories I share are mainly true. As true as any memory can be I guess.

As I head into Part 2 of this project...I don't want to give too much away...but the narrator is looking back on his life, searching through memories in an effort to come to terms with bipolar. Can you really separate life and bipolar? What even is bipolar? The theme of guilt is certainly found throughout almost every chapter of part 1.

Anyways, thanks again for being here. Looking forward to checking out more of your work. You've given me food for thought.

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Love the term 'fictional memoir'! And phenomena like bipolar are so fascinating. Journey on... ✨️

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